18 feels like a massive number...

as each day goes past, we get older and older
that's natural and we cannot help it
but i am scared about growing up
i'm not sure why, maybe because i have to deal with difficult things
that's why i don't want anything for my birthday, maybe a hoodie from my parents that i've wanted for a while
but from my friends, please, if you are thinking of getting me something, make me something instead
save your money, make something personal, something i can keep forever
even a letter would be amazing!
i will be forever greatful if you did.

moving on, found a new amazing way to make thee best hot chocolate ever!
i watched 'Chickens, Hugh And Tesco Too' about an hour ago and it is comforting to know that there is people out there that feel the same as i do, it's good.
i should really go to bed but i really cannot sleep.
we have started to plan our summer holiday
my parents said we would try somewhere new this year, i obviously rejected this decision!
Cornwall is beautiful, all i want to do is get a house riiiight down in Cornwall, middle of nowhere, by the sea, nothing for miles, and just forget the world.
hopefully it will happen.

music artist for today: Jack Johnson

perfect lyrics

i don't need to know
why the oceans blue or how the flowers grow
i don't need to love
waiting on someone to forgive me for my sins

like my father before me
i'm a working man a working man

but i don't need to believe in something that won't save my sanity

no i don't need i don't need to know no i don't need to know
i don't need to know i don't need to know

i don't want to live in a world where faces change from day to day
i don't want my life to be
so full of doubt and misery

the years now past without a trace
it's something that i'm learning to embrace
how most black nights are spent awake
think about how i don't want to live that way

no i don't want to live
i don't want to live

i don't know but i've been told
if you don't believe the devil owns your soul
if this is the truth then to hell i go
cause i don't need to know

freedom is good

Hannah and Luci's birthday last night was really good
everyone looked amazing
and i had a really good time!
i've been listening to City And Colour a lot lately,
Dallas really is something else

i dunno about everything,
just trying to work some things out
i'm thinking about the future a lot lately, i guess i always have
i really shoudn't think about it that much because it upsets me and makes me angry
¬_¬
buuuuut, anyway
i want to move to Canada
and chop wood and buy loads of dogs and wear checked shirts all day
and find a perfect man and we can go playing in the snow everyday
i can't wait.

favorite song for today: City And Colour - I Don't Need To Know

I LIKE BANDS WHO SING ABOUT REAL THINGS.

"oh and at least rise against talk about real things that we need to sort like famine and war and destruction and thirst and environmental issues instead of talking about 'omggggg boiiiz!!! i luv boiz dey r mazin!!'"

please listen to Rise Against.

now that's amazing

http://www.shac.net/news/2009/january/10.html

complete fame, take a look!
our next one is going to be brutal.

no, i am not where i belong

okay, i heard a Brand New song for the first time in about a year today
my feelings were out of control
i loved every second of that song
it was mental
now i know why i love them so much.
but anyway,
i don't know how to describe how i've been feeling for the last couple of days
it's hard to say
but i guess i'm just describing it in pictures
i do like pictures, a lot.

music for today: City and Colour

dallas green really is something else.

some of the stuff i really like;

sunsets, attack in black, canada, dallas green, towriteloveonherarms.com, anti-animal testing, vegan food, callitcaptivate.com, bryce avary, the co-op, helping people in need, helping animals in need, finding people who are as passionate as me, protests about stuff i really believe in, friends, family, my home, my rabbit, my garden, my brother's new car, jamie tworkowski, tour, parties with good people, music like anberlin, n.e.r.d, rise against, ace enders and a million different people, the rocket summer, the white tie affair, switchfoot, going on holiday to cornwall and standing on top of cliffs looking at the most beautiful sunset i have ever seen my 17 years of living, people realising what an impact they can make on the world, people who fight for good things, really nice people who are genuine, people who don't mind getting dirty (i.e. non-fake blonde bimbos who love L.A., i love L.A. but not in a cool way), freedom, love, passion, selfless people, being so blessed.
i need to stop taking things for granted.
i have such a high quality of life, i need to make the most of it.
let people know how amazing they are, how much i need and appriciate them.
i love this island, but i cannot wait to travel, see things i need to see.
i'm in deep thought right now.
there's so many feelings i need to get out, so many things i need to do. i just can't do them, yet.
thankyou for reading, thankyou for being here, thankyou for being amazing.
visit some of these sites, they need support and are amazing:
www.peta2.com
www.viva.org.uk
www.twloha.com
www.callitcaptivate.com
www.socialvibe.com
www.veganthis.blogspot.com

also check out the bands i mentioned if you've never heard them.
do something amazing today.

favourite song for today: anberlin - breathe

this year so far

has been good
real good
my protest on saturday (10th jan) was real good! but actually freezing, i mean freezing too
so many parties
schools alright
friends are amazing
so excited for gigs
and my birthday
and keira's birthday
me and keira have started going to the gym, i love it, i feel so fit and healthy!
:D