this fucking album

is getting me through this.
thank god.

this is

me and my friends
HAHA, i wish.

probably the best video ever made

Jack's Mannequin "Swim"

change

if you wanna make the world a better place take a look at yourself then make a change

...

i seem to forget how much of an influence this man has been in my life
he is fucking incredible

beautiful

september is too far away.

summer

these two albums are definitely gonna be on repeat all summer
they are incredible

amazing band

http://myspace.com/numberonegun

plus

i have thee best sister in the world
she's gorgeous.

i am so glad

i have this boy back in my life
like seriously
why did i ever doubt him.

second best

i've changed so much
it's awful
i'm not myself anymore
i'm settling for this island and just accepting it
i need to get out of here, and leave all this shit behind
all these people who make me feel like crap day in day out
i never gave a damn what people said or thought about me
suddenly, i do.
save me.

last.fm

Asher Roth (110 plays)
All Time Low (94 plays)
Michael Jackson (51 plays)
Closure In Moscow (27 plays)
The Audition (20 plays)
Cobra Starship (17 plays)
Brand New (17 plays)
The Dangerous Summer (15 plays)

mr roth

so addicted.

music

Alexisonfire (84 plays)
The Audition (74 plays)
Underoath (59 plays)
Vanna (58 plays)
Closure In Moscow (57 plays)
Asher Roth (49 plays)
Burden Of A Day (44 plays)
This Providence (44 plays)

http://last.fm/user/katieftsk

legend

album of the year?

"i'll send an S.O.S through a telegraphic note
express distress
written in code, signed to unknown
cause nobody should know what it's like to be alone
so take back your soul
a life to uphold a lie to be told cause love's not set it stone."

i love my boyfriend

see

i am no king, i wear no crown.

sometimes, life makes me think.
i wish i was doing what i love and want instead of just wasting time here.

katie balmer

is officially in love.
not even joking.
(:

perfection

haha

mitchel musso is amazing

lights

is amazing.

close call for sure.

i have definitely changed in such a short time
i mean, for about a week i've been prancing round with a £800 Chloe calf leather handbag. yes CALF leather as in BABY COW.
hideous.
that handbag is gone now, so that's a start.
i need to focus on becoming an aid worker/getting a job at peta before i get sucked into the world of blonde hair, mainstream shit, bitches and OMGGG HANDBAGS.
i'm good now, i am listening to rise against and they are slowly bringing me back to reality.
that was definitely a close call.
p.s. think about what you're doing before you do it.

"not one single bone in your back owns up to how you let us down."

sunrises

There's definately something about a sunrise that makes me feel like nothing else
I woke up at 3am, got on a boat, drove for about an hour and now sitting in the car, on a plane runway
Not your average morning
The sunrise in front of me is enough to make a grown man cry

my boys

AAAAMAZING!

Jenson Button

world class

barker and hoppus = legendary.
delonge = not so good.

i'm fed up of hearing me moan about everything, let alone everyone else.
shut the fuck up man, let's just stop caring about shit so much yeah?
kay cool.

healthy?

i just wanna be free
i love the feeling of being free
i know i'm in a pretty comfy situation at the moment, and can be in that same situation for the rest of my life
but i really need to pull my finger out and sort out what i REALLY want to do
please help, here are my options:
stay on the island, work for my mum in her playschool, train to be a teacher, move to africa and help
learn to drive, get a job at peta2, tour the country and other countries with my favourite bands
go to sparsholt college, do something to do with horses
try get a job in sandown zoo for 2 years then get a place at sparsholt on a wildlife course thing
cry for the rest of my life and do nothing

of corse, life is full of surprises, so none of them will turn out how i want
so negative.
at least 90210 was amazing tonight.
p.s. THANKYOU THE DANGEROUS SUNMMER FOR BEING SO FUCKING GOOD.

the best

james gearing is the best
and that's why he is still around
cannot wait for Brighton this week

always questioning

I feel as if I'm torn between three different lifestyles
One day I feel a particular lifestyle matters more than another, the next day it switches
I don't know which one to follow, which one would be best
I don't know where to even start
I think of an advantage but then 100 disadvantages
I would love to know why I strive for perfection, it gets me nowhere. I have nothing I really want because I always think that way
I want to really know me, if you get me?
I want to know why I do the weird things I do
If you happen to know, please enlighten me because I'm stuck
Stuck between a rock and a hard place, a fucking hard place.

GENIUS

answer this

i got rid of all my good friends
nothing's stopping me
i have the money
the time
why haven't i disappeared off this fucking island yet?
i just wait around, day after day, for something to happen
i need a serious reality check
i need to get off this island, go travelling for a long time
get away from the people i hate so much
i wanna go so badly but why do i need someone to come with me?
this is such an awful situation
i just wish i had the strength to go by myself.

i like the cab.

i'm bringing sassy back

i think i fall out with people who get real close to me because one day i know i will not be here, i'll be surprised if i'm even in this country
it sounds bad but i'm pretty worried that people i really care about will tie me down or be the reason i'd never leave, hence why i fall out with a lot of people.
the friends i do keep i never see.
if i have no really good friends then there's no reason to stay!
i cannot wait to get out of this massive black hole they call the 'isle of wight'
i hate the people most of all
no matter how much you delete someone out of your life they still find a way to worm in a try and destroy you
good luck haters.

'you'd be the kinda girl to take home to my mama, if my mama was dead'

PEACE OUTTTTT.

marriage

p.s.

i fucking miss this boy
more than he'll ever know.

this album is incredible
it's like an album version of me, if i was an album this one would be me no doubt about it bro
i can't explain how amazing it really is
just listen, i've fallen in love
this is gonna be on repeat for the next 568 years.
i cannot even find a lyric that really sticks out, every single word is pure perfection.
cheers for making my life worth living ;D

just

please
i'm so lost in my thoughts
i need a break
to get away and have time to think about how lucky i really am
no matter how shit i feel every single day
i hate this life
baaad
save me
pleaaaaase

mountain dew and the dangerous summer are all i have right now.

"you are my star and you're where i wanna be"

off the island again

My god it feels good
Just moshing to adtr in the car.
Mine and electric j's trip will be better for sure.

...

i just got told i strive for perfection
which i do, but i only just realised really
which might be why it's so hard for me to find friends and a boy
but one day i will.
i have a lot on my mind, especially one boy but we won't talk about that cause i don't like thinking about him. confusing.
i'm also thinking about going to sparsholt college to do conservation or something.
then i can move to africa
cool.
whatever, i love my name is earl.
p.s. i have no life at all, just been on The Sims ALL day. give me a life please.

music is my life

Treasures
You Should've Killed Me When You Had The Chance
Southern Skies
Have Faith In Me
Treasure Island
Coca-Cola
Nothing Personal
The Plot To Bomb The Panhandle
Windy Heart
Homesick
Fork And Knife
Over My Head (Cable Car) (cover)
Electroshock
Weightless
The Only Thing I Have (The Sign)
Seventy Times 7
Love Me Honestly
Surfaced
Motion
Bedroom Talk
What Goes Around... (cover)
Reaction
Open Happiness
Changed My Mind

if you can name the artists that sing every one of them songs, i swear to God i'll marry you straight away.

A Day to Remember (161 plays)
Brighten (110 plays)
Brand New (87 plays)
Ace Enders And A Million Different… (44 plays)
3OH!3 (43 plays)
The White Tie Affair (33 plays)
Holiday Parade (31 plays)
All Time Low (20 plays)

i need to go to Brighton again
it's were i belong, stuff London
not that i'm gay or anything but everyone is sooo nice and totally on my wave length.
i love it.

changing

i'm changing for sure
i don't care as much as i use to
and i don't just mean about animal rights, i mean everything
life, i'm hating on more and more people each day
i really need something to come and kick me up the arse just to remind myself how fucking lucky i am
and how i need to go back to my old ways
sort it out katie, what are you doing?
plus, i do not like the spelling of embarrassment, it looks wrong
it might be wrong
is it wrong?
man i'm losing it.

"maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares"

real love.

when you're lost look for the sign

i haven't listened to music all day
and i feel awful and depressed
haha, it's crazy
i'm actually listening to my first song of the day and already i feel better
i think music let's me escape from real life
and all the problems mounting up
i don't know what to do anymore, i'm starting to give up
i really need someone close right now, a best friend or boyfriend
but do i realllllly think one of them is just going to pop along? no.
they never do when you need them most.

"can someone please tell me that i can be something before too long."

love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love, yes.

http://myspace.com/aceendersandamilliondifferentpeople

had a real good day, went on a course about promoting self esteem to children
can't wait for tomorrow
got so many games to play with the children :D
the course actually helped a lot, with myself
and i will be having 'golden moments' throughout the day, just so i don't get angry and shout
i can tell this is the start of something good
i also figured a couple of things out, yes i did
but that's a different story
i love this weather, so much
i love dave melillo, so much
i am so lucky, thankyou God.

LIFE IS TOO SHORT NOT TO.

"it's not enough to say i think about you now,
but that was all i had."

had a sweeeeeet adventure around London yesterday
it was real good, got lost for 4 hours, fun stuff!
my day was really good, went sooo fast!
life's good
shiiiit, i've missed Alexisonfire a hell of a lot.

"times change and people change with them."

to buy or not to buy?

"it's sad when people you know become people you knew. when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely even look at them."
i find myself praying more and more each day.

"all i have is all of me, and it's all that i can give."

still gives me goosebumps

http://myspace.com/lightsnoise

asif i can stop listening.

jesse is God.

"if we all don't take cover, we're all gonna fall back in love again."

new fish eye

"the cure is if you let in just a little more love
i promise you this, a little's enough."

"with the weight of the world on my shoulders,
they just want to see me fall,
have faith in me."

i'm not sure what it is about the sunshine but it makes me the happiest person alive
just sitting outside with my family is amazing
listening to amazing music and taking pictures of nothing at all
i cannot wait for the summer holidays, brand new, finding new friends and maybe even a boy who's worth half my time!
i love life atm, i want this weather to last, cause it makes me forget about the crappy stuff.
p.s. thankyou to the people who have sticked by me, you really mean the world to me, i love you
(:
p.p.s James Gearing is possibly the best person on this entire planet.

"the world can take control but don't ever lose your heart, because i know you better than that."

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this man is amazing
he is easily one of my favourite musicians
i can't believe i saw him live
4 times
i wish he'd bring City and Colour back, that gig was amazing
his music brings back so many amazing memories
i'm probably gonna be playing his stuff all summer
if you've never heard his solo stuff, you need to
http://myspace.com/dallasgreen
Dallas, thanks for being a hero

"there's no need to rush, we're all just waiting to die"

incredible

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Well tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

it's funny, the people you think are for keeps, turn out to be as bad as the rest.
i'm really struggling to trust people
i definatly need to go back to my old self, i loved those days
i need to learn to drive so i can get off this island
it would be good for me and i need it
i don't like people telling me what to think or do, at all
i have my head so far up my own arse and i like it that way
i have a backbone, i tell the truth, i do what i think is right
i do not care what other people think of me, what people say about me
frankly, you talk about me just wastes your time, not mine
when i'm around the same person for too long i start to see the complete dick in them and it makes me hate them
but christina told me that i'll always find someone better, and i believe her. CAUSE SHE'S FOR KEEPS.

i'm glad i got that off my chest, i like justin timberlake.

"can you hear me? well i don't even care."

the most beautiful song ever;

I set my words on the ground and I was grinding my teeth. I planted
pieces of light to see if planets could speak. It took my mind by surprise
when I was finally free, through all my darkest days. I felt my heartbeat
again, and dropped to my knees. There was a sun in my eyes that made
a star out of me. It's like my life was a list and my head was first
to get crossed off. It's the pleasure that I keep to sit down with my
friends and talk about my day. Can you hear me? Well I don't even care.
I'll stop my screaming if you look the other way. It's been a bad year
so let me sleep in one more day. I really found the simple things live
closest to your home. I'm not alone because I live inside a world that
is my own. I haven't found what I've been looking for yet, but you
can count on me to stay forever. And that's the truth, we'll stay just
fine. I'm coming back and just on time to be myself again; the way that
made me real. So tell me, have you surfaced yet? This is how it felt
when I was growing up and being part of no one but you found yourself,
and that says a lot to me these days. I'm sorry for the way I used to
be, I was just a kid. Yeah, let me sleep this off. Try not to be hard
on yourself was all I ever heard from her. I finally think I understand
what she was saying to me, because nothing's worth the pain in your
back. Believe in that. The world can take control but don't ever lose
your heart, because I know you better than that.

the thing that annoys me most in the entire world is people worrying too much and taking life too seriously
why do it?
we only live once (as far as i know) so let's just go party and hope for the best!
i'm as happy as the next man and i don't care about anything. i should but i just don't
i love this summer weather and sitting outside listening to Brand New
i think... for once in 18 years i stepped outside my front door and thought to myself 'wow, i like living here. it's beautiful' YES, KATIE BALMER DID JUST SAY THAT.
i fucking love it so much and love everything thankyou for being so amazing
just chill out!
so now go listen to The Dangerous Summer and forget about everything

"nothing's worth the pain in your back"

"i am heaven sent, don't you dare forget."

beautiful.

"nothing matters, i'm just chasing the wind."

still trying to figure out why i ever stopped listening to the best band in the world.

"and even if her plane crashes tonight she'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage or drowning at the bottom of the sea."

Brand New;

i can't find the words to describe quite how much i fucking love this band
by far the best band in the entire world
why did i ever stop listening to them?
when i listen to them it makes me forget about how shit everything is
Jesse Lacey really is something else
i hope to god the rumours about them touring this summer are true
i'm going to every date.
thankyou for being so amazing Brand New.
if you've never heard them, what are you playing at?
get on youtube, illegally or legally download, myspace, facebook, buy cd's, i don't care, DO IT.

"oh it hurts to be this good."

well worth the wait.

first day

today was my first day at proper real life work
it was really goood
so much better than school
i need to work towards passing my driving test and getting a car now
i also want a puppy, so maybe after i've got a car and stuff
i'm gonna rescue a beagle
:D!

life is poo

WHY?!
why am i even doing something that upsets me and stresses me out as much as this?
it seems the most pointless thing ever
i wish i could drive so i could apply for that job at PETA
for god sakes.

moving on, if i didn't meet and see live 3OH!3 last night i would have probably taken my own life by now.
they were incredible live and amazing guys!
i neeeed to see them again and again and again.
i would miss school for a gig ANYDAY.
more important by far.
who's going to Give It A Name Incoming? probably only going for The Academy Is and Underoath
oh and Taking Back Sunday and Thursday
the rest can suck it.

music for today: The Academy Is...

The best feeling in the entire world ever

travelling, being away from the island, being away from everything I know well.
I love it, more than anything in the world.
Just on our way to London, no apparent reason, sooo good to get away from errrrthing
I have chocolate flavoured 'outback animals' LOVE ITTT!
I need to work towards getting a touring job at PETA, this is what I want to do for the rest of my days.
Last night, rise against, was incredible.
Met anti flag afterwards, shared some VEGAN LOVE!
Just stood there getting sniffed by anti flag.
Flobots were amazing, completely surprised me!
So, yeah. I HEART TOUR!

music for today: mixtapes in the car!

why?

despite the amount of crap has happened i'm in a better mood than usual!
i love it
i love the scene aesthetic and a day to remember
and i'm seeing rise against tonight, it should be mental
i might get a bit loose and start smashing crap up
(:

i love my flag

(:

pleasssseeeee

i would LOVE these shoes
i cannot find a pair in my size to save my life
it's breaking my heart
Hunter Burgan is a legend!
please, find me a size 4
kthanxbaiiiiiii

oh god

i love A Day To Remember so much.

(:

no matter what shits going on today, i feel good.
pretty excited for the future.
thanks keira, i love you.

music for today: Jack's Mannequin

my only love = vegans

this is not working.
i neeeed to find a vegan boyfriend
where are all the vegans? 'cause that's where i belong.

music for today: Rise Against/The Rocket Summer

last night

was one of the best nights ever
i haven't had a night that good in a while
i needed it!
(:

does anyone even realise

how much i want to get out of this place?
what is the point in doing something that you hate?
i feel like a battery hen, as i've probably said before.
i want to be in Canada or America or Brazil or Africa or Japan or India or Thailand or Austrailia, not here.
TAKE ME AWAY.

'and i hate it, that i'm stuck here wasting time.'

music for today: The Rocket Summer